Psa

You know what? Fuck everything! I don’t want to die! Why does this have to happen to me? I want to go to college and start a family. For fucks sake I want to graduate high school! Is that too much to ask from this world? I don’t want to be in pain. I don’t want to leave my family. I DON’T WANT TO BE BURIED IN A HOLE IN THE FUCKING GROUND AT FIFTEEN! ITS NOT FAIR!

I’m not coming God or whoever the hell is up or down there. I’m going to fight kicking and screaming. You’re not taking me down. I don’t care how hard it is, how many surgeries or how much pain.

You. Can’t. Have. Me.

Psa

Hi everyone,
Thank you all so much for still following my blog. I’m completely blown away that still over a hundred of you are here. I guess I’m just writing this to say goodbye.

Since last year this time, I’ve been fighting cancer. I’m not going to go into much more detail than that but I think, scratch that, I believe I’m losing the fight.

I don’t know if I’ll make it past Christmas or even if I’ll last till thanksgiving. I’m not giving up hope, just trying to prepare myself for the worst.

Every single one of you are incredible and I love you all. I’ll miss you guys so much. You don’t have to keep following me anymore after this because I probably won’t post again. I can’t bring myself to delete my blog though. Maybe even if I can’t keep living in this world my thoughts and ideas will still stay alive here.

I really hope that this won’t be my last post but if it is, thank you everyone for making my last year worth living.

Love, forever and always, Marie

thegraceofawincestiel:

probably late about this, but I couldn’t find it anywhere. So enjoy for those who haven’t seen it. 

trogdorthe-burninator:

neraiutsuze:

faint-in-destruction:

deanwinchesster:

shainecomeback:

Please wait warmly while the Angel is preparing.

*buffering*

Not able to connect to Grace, please call your Creator

ERROR 404: Angel was unable to access waveofcelestialintent.exe, run://program/Fly.wngs failed.

Application angel.exe has crashed

trogdorthe-burninator:

neraiutsuze:

faint-in-destruction:

deanwinchesster:

shainecomeback:

Please wait warmly while the Angel is preparing.

*buffering*

Not able to connect to Grace, please call your Creator

ERROR 404: Angel was unable to access waveofcelestialintent.exe, run://program/Fly.wngs failed.

Application angel.exe has crashed

(x)

stupidjerkward:

jerkasaurus:

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So, I have been sitting on this idea for a while, and I think it is finally time to unleash my “Peter Hale Is An Abusive Narcissistic Personality & Continually Victimizes Derek” head cannon!

From time to time I see people, including Deucalion during Visionary, label Peter as a…

"Once Derek became the alpha, Peter might not have a physical edge over Derek any longer, but the psychological grip is still as strong as ever. For the continuation of the series, Peter uses ambient abuse to assert is dominance over Derek, eroding his nephew’s sense of self-worth and self-esteem…

Because of their shared history, Derek feels like he should defer to Peter and this causes him to lose faith in his ability to manage and to cope with the world and its demands… Peter subverts Derek’s focus by disagreeing with his way of perceiving the world, his judgment, by criticizing him incessantly – and by offering plausible but specious alternatives. By constantly lying, Peter blurs the line between reality and nightmare.”   

Yessss! My BFFles hammered out our mutual theory explaining Peter Hale’s motivations and mental state.

There are head-canons and then there are HEAD-CANONS.  Head-canons that take an apparently nonsensical and ill-fitting event in canon (Visionary) and suddenly make it all slot into place so seamlessly that you are unable to see the events in canon without this lense.

Peter having Narcissistic Personality Disorder puts the events in “Visionary” and more, into context, and rather than Paige being a bizarre, shoe-horned-in, gratuitous trauma, she becomes part of a larger pattern of mental, emotional, and possible sexual abuse against Derek by Peter.  

Derek and Peter’s extremely strange relationship in which, against all reason, Derek defers to and seems strangely submissive to Peter, makes sense in the light of Derek having suffered a lifetime of emotional abuse and isolation at Peter’s hands.  
Even when Peter is in a coma, Derek returns to him continuously looking for help and support- partially because he is so alone, but we can assume also because of whatever relationship they had before.

Derek seems destroyed by betrayal when Peter reveals himself as the Alpha, but when Peter insinuates himself back into Derek’s life he allows it, seems to crave someone else to take control.
Even when Derek fights him it’s with the over-agressive bravado of a child throwing a tantrum.

And really, in no other light does Peter trying to get rid of Paige make sense.  He was threatened by Derek leaving him- like a domestic abuser, he needed to make sure Derek stayed isolated and dependent on him alone.  Who knows how close Derek and Peter were after the events in Visionary?  Did it push them closer in codependency like Peter wanted? Did Derek take on all the blame, or does he resent Peter? Could Derek’s relationship with Kate Argent have been partially him rebelling against Peter’s control?

stupidjerkward:

Damn girl!

stupidjerkward:

Holy crap, RemainNameless also wrote Dating Backwards, The Worst Thing I Ever Did, Cross Our Bridges, and Paperweight—- I’m having a Religious Sterek Fangirl experience over here weeeeeeeee bye 

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Jensen Ackles #72

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Jensen Ackles #72

"i feel like a part of my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything. maybe we’re from the same star." — Emery Allen