You know what? Fuck everything! I don’t want to die! Why does this have to happen to me? I want to go to college and start a family. For fucks sake I want to graduate high school! Is that too much to ask from this world? I don’t want to be in pain. I don’t want to leave my family. I DON’T WANT TO BE BURIED IN A HOLE IN THE FUCKING GROUND AT FIFTEEN! ITS NOT FAIR!
I’m not coming God or whoever the hell is up or down there. I’m going to fight kicking and screaming. You’re not taking me down. I don’t care how hard it is, how many surgeries or how much pain.
You. Can’t. Have. Me.
Thank you all so much for still following my blog. I’m completely blown away that still over a hundred of you are here. I guess I’m just writing this to say goodbye.
Since last year this time, I’ve been fighting cancer. I’m not going to go into much more detail than that but I think, scratch that, I believe I’m losing the fight.
I don’t know if I’ll make it past Christmas or even if I’ll last till thanksgiving. I’m not giving up hope, just trying to prepare myself for the worst.
Every single one of you are incredible and I love you all. I’ll miss you guys so much. You don’t have to keep following me anymore after this because I probably won’t post again. I can’t bring myself to delete my blog though. Maybe even if I can’t keep living in this world my thoughts and ideas will still stay alive here.
I really hope that this won’t be my last post but if it is, thank you everyone for making my last year worth living.
Love, forever and always, Marie